variantation

wasn't anything like our tongues tied together
frostbitten and festering--pain too silent to note
I would swear that killing lizards was harder
but I guess it's hard to pulverize by way
of an accident, not unlike the way I
popped your blood vessels one by one
you're a lazy doctor, lazy with your incisions
but effective in your field of polar depth
doesn't it remind anyone of a double vision
lost on himself it makes me, think of the first time
you made me scream
first and foremost your understanding of
language is absurd, but there are
loads of other reasons we can't be together
adamantine thoughts start to taste acrid after a while
it was easy at first to dump you into an iron maiden
but just like a botched root canal, your eyes
bloody out their sockets fasten themselves to my skull
didn't my tears make any difference to you
killing people with cruelty can't be as simple
as you would have me believe
as we forgive those who trespass against us
cover me in mud and I lift my chin
up to the bodies celestial that rain over me
not unlike the drops of spiteful blood
that coat my lungs
coughing you up like a bad time

5/4--The Best Lunch

Waiting for J and tequila sunrises. Sun is shining, life is getting sweeter all the time. Summer continues to lift its chin up to me and I feel so free and powerful.
My hands are opening and I am beginning wherever I can--today I believe in blessings.

the Furies of light surround
when I say to them: hurry before my fever
falls apart, they take to my body
to fuel all the good and the noble
to live with sincerity is a service
to die with stones is true wealth
as it is, my mouth stuffed with petals
I cannot breathe for waking joy

5/1/12

twelve mornings are floral
twelve are crystal
twelve are sore
and nine are weary

to sear is to serve
quick lines like a knife
pittsburgh style
rare like lapis
in a pool of lime light
underneath a band of copper